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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

It's My Least Favoritest Time of the...

…not Christmas. I love Christmas. We’re mixing down the first Action City CD single in Elgin tomorrow night. I love music – I love playing with my friends – I even love recording – I get excited when the red light goes on. Ok, there is no red light on the wall in Larry’s duplex – I can pretend, can’t I?

But I fucking hate mixdown. I have night-terrors about the seconds upon minutes upon hours I’ve wasted eq’ing the rack tom. Fuck the rack tom!!!…and I love the drums, but fuck the fucking rack tom.

Ok – it’s not the night-terrors about the rack tom, it’s just, the whole process is boring. At some point in every mixdown, I find myself missing the days when I drank everyday. I never miss this portion of my life – even when I was changing dirty diapers (usually my own, sometimes Alex’s).

I’m hoping this time will be different. The whole band will be there. I’ll be with my friends, we may even laugh (hopefully not at the basic tracks).

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

No Finger Action

Many points from all the comments worth addressing – but ChrisB’s last note reminds me what is at stake here. Consider:

“To me cutting off someone’s finger is evil. In some countries, it’s justice. You get the point.”

…at the beginning of his comments Chris said: “…if you can provide one source that defines them (good vs. evil)…it’s not subjective and I’m an idiot.”

Here’s what I’m NOT interested in doing:

A.) Trying to prove Chris is an idiot – he is an intelligent man, and that’s what makes part of this conversation scary to me…because in our society – and maybe in the West in general – very intelligent people hold this postion (as the P Dawg pointed out).

B.) I’m also not interested in continuing to use the terms good & evil. I’m not married to these terms…we’ve been using them since this started with the Nietzsche crap – and there is a subtle point that we could focus on – but we’d miss what is more important: intelligent people, who have thoughts on politics and even things that mean something – can’t say that a country that cuts off peoples’ fingers in the name of justice is behaving unjustly.

So fuck good and evil – I don’t care about these words. I care about Chris’ challenge. Show me an objective set of standards regarding how actions should be judged (that we can all agree on) and then I will consider the broader implications.

…and maybe for now let’s separate this notion of the just and the legal…

…and let’s forget my harmless and almost silly Sony example…

Doesn’t Chris’s position suggest that there are no grounds for us to reject governments that call slavery a “good” – or call slavery good because it is their way? Doesn’t Chris’ position suggest that the only reason we have to call Nazi Germany a failure is Hitler’s reason (something like – if the German volk lose this battle they deserve what they get, they were not strong enough)…Smart people (maybe even smarter than Chris and I)…reject any notion of a transnational (or universal) justice and if they want to describe why some govts collapse – they do so by assigning it to the dungheap…er, dustbin of history. That sounds less provable than my flimsy good and evil bullshit. Who is the “sweeper” into the bullshit dustbin?

Smart people (again, maybe smarter than Chris and I) as a result of their desire for a rational, scientific – testable provable geometrically defined presentation of justice – or a set of standards…

…instead turn to consensus – or something that all or a majority of a given society can agree on…This may be a sign that I am 400 years behind the times (when the modern philosophers begin to embrace majority rule, their version of the democratic principle for modern liberal democracy)…but should we agree to trust the things nearest and dearest to us (our ability to make sense out of the world) to what 51% of a given society (or even our society) say/says?

Maybe we should turn to history – the mystical historical process sorts out issues like slavery – the Nazis – whatever…

Um, that notion seems scarier and more bullshitty than – there is nothing – no standard.

So here’s where we are – I’m going to consider the ChrisB challenge, near the end of the Eternal Return of More Bullcrap comments…and we’ll go from there.

Unless you guys tell me what the hell I’ve missed…again.

Rock on, much love, and good luck to us all.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Eternal Return of More Bullcrap!

Picking up from somewhere…

The last set of comments (from Here We Go Again) suggest to me that Josh and ChrisB are on the same page with respect to the source of things that men call “good” and “evil”. Both of their positions seem to be in harmony with the notion of good and evil put forth in Nietzsche’s “On the Thousand and One Goals” (from Z). We (humans) give ourselves all that we call “good” and “evil.” The difference between Josh and Chris seems to be this: for Josh there is a societal component of good and evil reached through “consensus” (I think was the term he used way back several postings ago) – and the personal component for Josh seems to be choices made (not by appeals to some universal standard because he doesn’t believe such a thing is possible) but choices are made on a case by case basis. For Josh what we seem to have as a guide is prudence – what is the best course of action under the given circumstances (or at least he says that is the only useful guide for him)…and again, for the reasons I gave earlier, this position makes sense to me if there is no other standard for good and evil other than what our society says. If our society says it – and it is in my interest to reject what my society says…and get away with it – why shouldn’t I? In fact, if I understand the way the world works – and I am a real man, not some little fucking sheep – this is in fact, what I should do (forget any normative component of “should” other than – I would be a dumbass if I didn’t take advantage of things when opportunity knocks).

ChrisB did not include a societal component in his response. It seemed that Chris was only interested in framing this discussion of “good” and “evil” in personal terms. He said it depends “100% on perception”. I assume that Chris responded this way because he finds those who would prescribe or even force their moral choices on him to be contemptible at best – or cockblocking, fetid pieces of detritus if we were to be honest about it. I think I can go along with part of this argument as well. So many of our dear moralists have wonderfully incoherent (or maybe perfectly coherent) personal defects that instantly disqualify them from being guardians of their own morality – let alone me & ChrisB’s…

However, out of all the people who have been weighing in on this source of morality – source of good and evil blogshit…I was surprised to find that within hours of each other, Josh and ChrisB both published blogs vilifying Sony and the trojan (or Lifestyles, I’m an e-idiot) program they implanted (I’m sure that is the wrong term) on CDs that were made available to the general public. This may be a sign of how stupid I am, but what are the grounds for calling Sony evil fuckers?

Maybe Josh would respond that Sony violated the rules of the game that are in force and deserve to be “outed” not on the basis of right and wrong – good and evil – but to say we can’t play with these bastards anymore. Maybe Sony disregarded the changing paradigm (flux being an important part of Josh’s initial response) regarding what it means to share or possess information and they deserve to be treated like defectors. Or maybe it’s like getting the yuppies kicked out of the bar – Josh saw that Sony was caught with its pants down, he doesn’t like Sony so he took the opportunity to publish some frightening (some funny) remarks skewering the conglomeration of shitbags that make up such a company.

Would ChrisB respond: Who is Sony to impose its standards of ownership on me??? – and they can get their goddamn hands offa the innards of my computer thank you very kindly!!!!!!! Maybe ChrisB has a similar notion of the “rules of the game” to that of Josh’s. When it comes to this Sony shit (and the attendant crimes) it might be something like: Information, ideas should be free. Sony has gone too far and (to refer back to Josh’s response to my post on his blog) targeted those who ARE NOT pirates but also stupid consumers (like edP). Chris said something similar to me when we argued this one on one – manos (hands of fate?) to whatever I am. Fine. But why couldn’t these “others,” – innocent consumers (if such a thing is possible) the bystanders just be seen as collateral damage by Sony in it’s war against the pirating of the crappy Sony music catalogue? Why should Sony give a fuck if it can get away with it? Again, maybe that’s the only reason why we can blame Sony (on the basis of the Josh/Chris position) – they fucked up, they went against the consensus (mob?) and they got caught. That’s the daily doublefuckup. String em up next to Mussolini and his ladyfriend because Sony, like Mussolini and Jesus before them “couldn’t save Italy.” (Sorry Mr. J – I couldn’t resist – that was hilarious and I had to steal it).

Again, I am not hubristic enough to think that I am pointing these things out to show you guys that you don’t understand your own position or any of that crap. I also am aware that Josh and Chris B can both kick the fucking crap outta me and I don’t want any trouble. The reason I offered this as a response to some of the comments (from the 20 comments posting) is because it is too easy for me to carry on the discussion in terms of the history of political philosophy. I get paid to teach this shit and maybe I assume too much, thinking that these crusty old books are the way by which important things are made intelligible. One of Mike K’s earliest responses got me thinking of this. He said he wasn’t going to pay lip service to a bunch of old books but talk about what he knew. That is admirable. I’m going to return to some of these dead philosophers (if the other contributors will allow it) – but Chris and Josh’s anti-Sony statements in the wake of their understanding of the non-status (again not the right terminology) of “good” and “evil” drew my attention to where I was not wise – what I do not understand. So help me out boys. I want to be able to call Sony evil fuckbags too…tell me why (or the grounds on which) I can.

One last thing – Kimberly Jo has been reading these recent posts…she now knows why no one is offering me a tenured teaching position.

Friday, November 25, 2005

Don't Stop That Philadelphia Feeling

The thing I’ll remember most about Aaron Rowand’s contribution to the 2005 World Champion Chicago White Sox…

…his series against the Yankees. He threw his body all over that expansive no man’s land in Yankee Stadium. He played fantastic centerfield and robbed some big names of potentially big hits – and I am not a Yankee hater – but it was fun seeing the White Sox stick it to ‘em. A-Pud, in a post game interview following the series finale said, “Their centerfielder had a good series.”

Yeah dick hole – his name is Aaron Rowand!

…and now he has one more World Series ring than A-Rod does.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Thanks Again

There were a bunch of people nice enough to add posts or send personal e-mails offering me condolences (re: the wake in the posting below). To you I say thanks - to myself I say: ED YOU ARE A FUCKING TERRIBLE WRITER IF YOU GAVE ANYONE THE IMPRESSION THAT IT WAS YOUR GRANDFATHER THAT DIED! It was not my grandfather, it was my Cousin Mike's Gramps (the one that we didn't share). Why am I making such a big deal out of this?

Strange as this may sound - I was glad I went to the wake. I miss my Cousin Mike and I hadn't seen him in ages. We talked about W, the world, the woods and the White Sox - basically anything that began with the letter "W". OK enough. If you were kind enough to send me a note - Thanks - I do not reject your kindness...but I feel a Larry Davidesque obligation to remind everyone that this was not my Grandfather...although this guy was great and he busted balls like no one else.

Remind me never to drink and blog.

Sorry Fellas

I'm going to Lockport later today for a wake (my Cousin Mike's grandfather...not our common grandfather that I have disowned - or told my Coustin Mike: "You take him."...our grandfather is dead) - it's his grandfather that's not related to me. I'm going to trust that that makes some sense to someone. I won't get to respond - or continue the previous conversation until Wed. I sound like one of my students - someone's cousin's grandfather always dies (and usually multiple times) during the semester. Anyway - more on that stuff later...Kim and I have to do a bunch of shit to get ready for Thanksgiving (we're hosting it this year)...but I should have some alone time on my computer later Wed...feel free to (quoting the late Sammy Sosa): "Keep it continue" - somewhere during my absence.

Failing that, go to Josh's blog - the link is over to the side - and find out why we should really boycott Target. Fucking Christmas shit where the rakes should be!!!! Hillarious.

In case anyone has forgotten how pretentious I am, let me conclude with another quote in Latin:

Eamus Catuli!
(I think it means "Let's go Cubs!" I got it from some Cubs fan's blog. I deserve to die, now you get to choose why.)

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Here We Go Again

“As a Shepard seeketh out his flock in the day that he is among his sheep that are scattered; so will I seek out my sheep, and will deliver them out of all places where they have been scattered in the cloudy and dark day…
- I will seek that which was lost, and bring again that which was driven away, and will bind up that which was broken, and will strengthen that which was sick: but I will destroy the fat and the strong; I will feed them with judgment.”
Ezekiel Ch34 verses 12 & 16

This was part of the first reading from Holy Mass today – although we don’t use the King James that I used above. People have their beefs w/ it – I use it because that’s what Hobbes, Locke etc use…it's the Bible I have to use at my job so, sadly - I'm more used to reading and researching it.

But I’m in Newman – in the presence of God – this reading comes up and all I can think about is: DR. JACK SHEPARD and the show LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I watched four episodes from Season One last night. It’s a sickness.

OK, since more than one person has asked: When are we going to get back to the serious bullshit around here – I say let’s go (what am I? Benjamin Orr?)

I no longer need to frame the conversation in terms of questions or problems I have w/ the Nietzsche class. I’m going to try and start at what I think is the beginning and see where we disagree.

And by the “we” it seems that (on the most important crap discussed previously) the disagreement is between me and everyone else. In other words Mr. J. - P. Dawg (I’m not going to lump in Michael here – because his question was about happiness and he didn’t seem to want to weigh in, one way or the other – so I don’t want to misrepresent him) but Josh and P Dawg have come out on the side that rules, ethics, morals, mores are cultural constructions – they come out of the city. They are established by someone – or some group of people for the purpose of control, order…what is needed to get through the day with people living together. Josh compares his position with that of “social Darwinism” (his words, not mine – and remember, this is all in good fun) – he knows where the rules come from – he has the ability to bend or disregard them when it is convenient – and if everything he puts forth is based on right reason (not to say truth) – then this is how a real man ought to behave.

Dawg – in addressing Josh’s longest reply (to my On Truth and Lie thing)…reflects the modern perspective – and maybe the last ditch, more hopeful version of the modern story – Rousseau’s notion that man in the state of nature (pre-political man, right? Before the advent of hi fidelity…er, civil society) – but natural man is essentially good. We become corrupted in the state of civil society. Here it is, from the P-Dawg’s post so people don’t have to look for it:

“Josh, sounds like you might subscribe to Rousseau's notion that we are born "good" and that this is a noble and "natural" state against which the imposition of order works to degrade our character. The task of raising new children into this society is allowing this "natural" state to flourish, yet all the while guiding the young citizen to make "good choices"--according to Nature, which is inherently "good."”

The Pairie Dawg might be trying to moderate Josh and slyly suggest a connection w/ Rousseau here - lots of luck. I don't think this is Mr. J's position - although the two positions share something important...

Maybe, I can say this much. Josh and this Dawg seem to be on the same page with respect to where rules, laws, social standards, ethics and customs come from – they are not a part of our nature, we (for lack of a better term) “make them up” and impose them on ourselves…as Josh admitted in a previous response – rulers and ruled have to deal with the fallout if they’re caught breaking the bullshit unbreakable laws. They will tell me if I’ve gone too far in suggesting that their position rejects the notion that convention, civil society (and many of its ethics, customs, morals, mores, habits of the hear – whatever) follow our nature rather than subvert it.

What is clear is that none of us have proven anything. All we’ve established – I think – is Josh and P.D. believe that the dictates of civil society have nothing to do – or may be ultimately coercive of (on, against – whatever) what we are.

And I am saying (without proving much) that I am unconvinced by their position – and my instincts have always suggested the opposite. The rules of the game in civil society (to debase them in name, as much as possible) may in fact follow our nature rather than subvert it. We flourish – not when we disregard these things, even the petty norms – but when we study (both through habituation and maybe even some more substantial type of learning) and even embrace them as part of what we are. We get a sort of similarity in these rules – when it real counts – cross culturally. Yes, I may be foolish enough to think that Saudi Arabia and Amsterdam (to use Josh’s hilarious example) may have enough in common “legally” to suggest that their conventional social/legal/political structures serve the same natural needs.

So here is where we stand. Again, I didn’t include Michael’s thoughtful question at this point because – at least in his comments he did not stake out a position and I did not want to speak for him (although I think I know what his position might look like regarding such stuff). Also, I think that Mr. Gunderson made a nice point while maintaining his dignity (more than the rest of us losers) – when he intimated that Josh’s TRUE position is that he will (or he SHOULD) choose the course of action that leads to the best story.

Enough people wanted to start this back up – and this is how I’ve chosen to start it back up – I hope I don’t sound like a dick – but what is worth talking about now is what we don’t agree on – recognizing that we all sort of agree that happiness – or the name happiness somehow has animated much of this discussion.

I’m gonna end this with some crusty old Latin quote that reflects the position that has always been more convincing to me. Maybe, to go back to Josh’s initial note in this crap – maybe I like this position because it contains what I want to hear…but here it is anyway:

“Ius naturalis est, quod natura omnia animalia docuit.”
Justinian I
from the “Institutes” - or "Institutes of Justinian" - I dunno - I can't even cite this crap.

I lifted this from a secondary source – Prairie Dawg no doubt knows the original as (I’m pretty sure) this Justinian was a Byzantine Emperor…

But the English is: “Natural right is that which nature has taught all animals.” This is the position I’m going to explore on and off over (way too many fucking nonsense words here) – the next coupla blogs – or until you guys say: “Ok Ed, you can’t articulate this shit – we have lives dammit!”

Best of luck to us all – and if anyone else can make some sense out of this junk – please help us.

Friday, November 18, 2005

Second Things First

I think we’re pretty sure that Dil is the first single we’ll release as Action City. Should anybody trust anybody else who says “I think we’re pretty sure”…?

What’s to trust? – it’s a dopey CD single. I love Dil – and I think everyone else does. Of course at some point I’m going to focus my energy on something pointless – the B-side!…or one of the extra songs…whatever. Dil is the main song – it’s going to be the one made available on the Action City site when it’s finally up and running – and it’s the only one we’re going to ask reviewers to review.

Having said all that – I’m convinced that I’m going to try to convince the other guys that we should put the live to tape version of ANY QUESTIONS we recorded (like two years ago)…with the Dark Squirrel on the first Action City release. Why? Because things are going well and it’s my job to fuck shit up.

No. Is their sonic weirdness with ANY QUESTIONS?

Yes. There always is with an ADF production – but sonic weirdness is not necessarily a bad thing. It’s a product of time spent eq’ing the rack tom and making sure to mix in "backwards drummer's perspective" – learning new shit as you go – working on a low/no budget – something that I’ll simply refer to as the Cheech and Chong factor - and the general rule that accidents are gonna happen. But this recording – despite any defects – is, in my not so humble eyes…beautiful. Even though it doesn’t sound like a blues song – it has that feeling. And even though that sounds like a thing I shouldn't aspire to - I do. Ok, it sounds like a blues song if it was written right after a Phil Jackson press conference...Yes, I am hopeless.

No. Devin’s last solo has everything I love about that kind of guitar playing – and reminds anyone who cares to be reminded - of what the fucking song is about…On the what the song is about – the lyrics are pretty much the best I can do – or the kind of shit that – for better or worse, makes me feel like I have some sort of clue as to what it is I am doing. By the way, I hope when I write entries about music or stuff I’m doing – I hope nobody reads this and thinks I’m foolish enough to believe that I think people are waiting – breathing hard for this shit – or that I feel I need to offer some magical insight into the mystical bullshit that I spend plenty of my life engaged in….

No. The reason I write about this is mostly to remind myself of things – or to try to figure out if I know what I’m doing. If I don’t – it’s way too easy to let things slip away…Anyhow, apologies aside – here’s what I think is the “best I can do” –

In perfect harmony
We agree to disagree that
Something has gone wrong
If it’s love that counts then
We’re as good as gone

When you said
That the ship is sinking
That’s not a question
It’s wishful thinking

Here’s the most amazing thing that’s happened this week. After all the time Mr. J and I spent talking about some high fallutin’ mumbo jumbo bullshit – we both decided (within 24 hours of each other) to write about tv…check out the link over to the side – his is much more thorough than mine. We are (temporarily) sparing everyone from seeing the orangutan with a revolver confront the man foolish enough to be gleefully handing out revolvers.

…and now I’ve decided to use the blog for the same thing I’ve wasted over 7000 pages writing about in my old journal…

…I’m writing about writing. There’s a special place in hell for shit like that.

Lucien Stryk to ed: “Write what you know.”
ed to this wonderful man: “What if I don’t know anything?”

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Keithin' It Real

From white phosphorus to wine-baths to I Quit to 666 Ken…

MSNBC’s Countdown is the reason Kim and I are keeping (at least) extended b. cable when the trial period is up. I loved K.O. when he was at the Sportscenter desk: “It’s deep, and I don’t think it’s playable” – my favorite highlight home run tagger of all time. He’s the only one (in my worthless opinion) who's moved on from Sportscenter and did a whole lot better. Sorry fans of Craiggers – he’s a loser in my book…but he sort of looks like the Queens of the Stone Age guy – so that’s something.

I’m three discs into(?) Season One of Lost and I am convinced that all the people are dead. I have no idea what I’m talking about – I haven’t even tried to figure out why they named a female character Rousseau. I know the Prairie Dawg made some serious comments on a previous blog regarding Rousseau – and I want to offer a serious response – but right now I’m dealing w/ a rented tv show.

Once again, I have let my friends down.

Welcome back from the Philippines wonderous Dawg.

I know I didn’t say anything about the show Sat – it was great – or it was the kind of show I love to play – claustrophobic stage – rude sounding guitars…raw drums right in my face. It’s why I started doing this junk in the first place. I wrote more about this on the Action City “test” page – which means, I think, that it’s not yet available to the generally disinterested public…er, general public...but I'm still posting shit on it. That sounds like me.

Just saw another commercial for the Cash movie. It could be great – but, I have no interest. You want to know about that man – listen to (I think) the first Rick Rubin record. The way he delivers the line:
“Tell the gossipers and liars I will see them in the fire
Let the train blow the whistle when I go.”

…that’ll tell you everything you need to know.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Happiness Can Wait

I want to pick up where J to the H and M to the K left off - especially this buisness regarding happiness - what is it? - is there something like happiness that is attainable for all of us by virtue of what we are - I think those guys are helping to frame this discussion nicely...

But I want to switch gears for a bit. I've been reading the Weasle Manor. I think Ben Weasle might be a closet (is there any other kind?) Chicago Blackhawks fan.

I love him.

Monday, November 14, 2005

On Turth and Lie in an Extra Moribund Sense

I’m going to use this blog entry to respond to Josh’s comments on the “Thanks to All” thing. If you have no interest in the Nicomachean Ethics or Nietzsche(or our feeble attempts to discuss these serious things) move on…I’ll try to write something else tomorrow.

Josh, your last response is why I value our friendship. Whatever the ultimate merits or defects of the response – it addresses the right questions – the ones that matter. And again, whatever its merits or defects – it makes more sense than the secular humanist stance: 'It is a point of pride to treat everyone as an independent moral agent especially in the absence of any universal truth claims.'

…and it is more honest than my sometimes mealy-mouthed Catholicism that picks and choose edicts of my church to follow (not to mention spending more time blogging than in a soup kitchen)…

Even though you downplay some of these thoughts in your post on DC Lies – I think they touch on important questions – older than secular humanism (praise God) and older than my church (by Jupiter!) and some of them are related to the most important questions asked by men – period. (redundancy intentional and stupid).

Some of the questions are important enough to be addressed separately – and that’s what I’m going to do here. I hope it doesn’t diminish your overall position by doing it this way – but I’m going to do it that way. Feel free to call me a bucket of pus.

ONE: “Every time I read a book I interpret it to reinforce my beliefs.”

Yeah – this is certainly related to the moldy, old (and silly sounding) question: Can wisdom be taught? Your response certainly resembles the dominant position of the previous century regarding what it means to read (and I’m not saying it like this to dismiss the position – it’s just something like a fact). But the 20th Century isn’t the first time this “problem of interpretation” has been taken up. Your thoughts regarding what it means to read is an important component of the Socratic critique of writing (consider Plato’s Phaedrus – I’ll give you the line numbers if you want). The written word can only remind someone of something they already know – Plato’s Socrates comes at this problem in a different way than you do in your response – but it is in the same direction.

My question is: Why do you think “everyone does this; at least I’m aware of it”? Do you mean that ALL we have are our own beliefs and if we see anything in these books we read – it’s what we put into them? Or, do you mean we all seek something like resonance – or recognizing our position in the thoughts of others? And why do we do this? Does this suggest a universal need, or is this desire institutionalized – a social construction as well?

Your third paragraph reminds me why this whole discussion is important – you frame these things in terms of “happiness.”

TWO: “I consider institutionalized ethics to be detrimental to happiness and success. These are abstract concepts implemented to control thought and behavior…”

You’ve hit on the problem – maybe the most important problem for men who live in the world. Knowledge of good and evil – the source of ethics – or the things men call justice – should bear directly on how we live. If these things are in fact, bullshit, then those who understand the world should live accordingly. Do what thou wilt (Chamberlain?) shall be the whole of the law. The strong do what they will, the weak yield what they must – sexy, power monger stuff like that. You should get the yuppies kicked out of the bar – AND throw a rock at their cab if you can get away with it.

It is what is at the heart of your critique of “institutionalized ethics” – they suck, or must be disregarded because they interfere with your happiness – and maybe happiness as such – if we all understand these things correctly. Maybe you recognize something of your position (or “beliefs”) in Aristotle’s Nicomachean Ethics. Consider:

“Every art and every inquiry, and similarly, every action and every intention is thought to aim at some good; hence men have expressed themselves well in declaring the good to be that at which all things aim.”

…and:

“Perhaps to say that happiness is the highest good is something which appears to be agreed upon.”

I’m not going to waste your time explaining Aristotle’s position re: the relationship between ethics – nature and human happiness. But we both know it’s probably going to be different from the one stated so nicely in your response. What’s interesting to me is that his starting point is the same as yours. Men care about happiness. Men want to know about the source of ethics – are they only civic assertions – or are they related to what we are – something that we need – like health. Knowledge of this stuff – pretty damned important eh. I suggest a read (or re-read of the Ethics might be worth your time because you will recognize your position there and you will see the departure). I would be interested to know your thoughts on the departure.

…or maybe I’m trying to distract you from writing your book because mine is about the same shit only probably with less sex and definite less gunplay than yours…

(maybe more drugs, but I’m not even sure of that)

Maybe you can go back and write about the genius children from the colonies of the challenged. That was awesome.

But I digest.

Aristotle’s Ethics might be worth your time because it takes (I think) a very different position than yours, but addresses an important component of your criticism forty lines into the book. Here’s your thought from the post:

THREE: “The majority defines the concepts of right/wrong, appealing/repulsive, good/evil, etc. These constructs are not static, but rather, in a state of flux.”

Aristotle in the E: “Noble and just things, with which politics is concerned, have so many differences and fluctuations that they are thought to exist only by custom and not by nature.”

What the fuck Aristotle?!?! That’s why he’s such a crafty old bastard. He’s willing to put the one argument that could potentially devastate his whole position – and put it in the beginning of his book. If we only had the balls…

Again, I’m not going to explain Aristotle’s position – it’s there for you – and you probably know it w/out this piss poor set of references.

Also I am not going to try to make the case for universal notions of morality – the position of classical political philosophy – or the theology of my beloved church – but I’m going to close this post with a few questions/lame-ass statements:

A.) If the truth about ethics and morality is that they are part of a sham – the way something or someone controls us, who started it?

B.) This is the greatest conspiracy theory ever right – has it been implemented in such a clever way that there will always be enough fools to wonder about the natural source of justice that we will cover up the fact that all there is, is mere convention?

C.) You say that “institutionalized ethics” are constructed in a way that is “detrimental to happiness.” Do you mean your happiness or happiness as such? The difference is important – right? I think you meant it in the sense of happiness as such…

D.) I’m not trying to hang a “you’re inconsistent” tagger here…rather I think your position intimates that society is arranged in such a way that is counterintuitive to us – civil society expressing these ethics inhibits us, limits us, presents us – maybe, from being what we are. What does it mean to say that civil society is arranged against our needs, are desires?

E.) If the reality is this flim-flam morality is put forth by confidence men (in the guise of leaders) to control us – why do we apply these standards to ourselves, in our families, among our friends…and if we catch the leader violating these inviolable rules – hasn’t that dumb bastard dug their own grave? We then call such a person a bloody tyrant, a usurper and they get a fate worse than the subjects suffered under the institutionalized ethics. The perfect excuse to beat the ever-living fuck out of Mussolini and his mistress!!!!!!!! These things become the same weapons that we use to undo our betters…I think the town you work in may be experiencing some of this ethical unpleasantness. I am not foolish enough to think it will last.

F.) Finally, regarding your bar example –starting the fight with the yuppies and successfully getting them kicked out of the bar: is this a blatant disregard for matters of good and evil – right and wrong – whatever…or is this just being naughty? Again, the difference seems to be important. Maybe I just want to get myself off the hook – because I do similar things – from time to time.

…I wanted to say something about “social Darwinism” but I said finally above – so fuck me, I’ve said enough.

Thanks for the thoughtful remarks. I hope I don’t seem like too much of a prick addressing it the way I did above…it’s worth the risk because this topic fascinates me too…dammit.

Friday, November 11, 2005

Thanks to All

Thanks to everyone who added comments to the fucked up Wed blog. I don’t know what it is about Wed…Yes I do – it is the day of the week when I can not escape the fact that I’m in way over my head.

In response to Ms. Kaka – I’m working on the real monkey…to Mike K – even the unedited Star Wars scripts make more sense than this shit, so you’re totally right…to Elise – this stuff is supposed to hurt your head, your soul and don’t forget your ass…Josh – while I’m not convinced by your interpretation, what impressed me is that you were able to present a plausible interpretation of BGE in something resembling simple, declarative sentences. That’s far better than I did with my statement of the problem in the initial posting. What I’m not convinced by (maybe that’s too strong) – what I’m still not sure of – is what it means to “overcome” the old notion of good and evil – and, more to the point, what Nietzsche understands with respect to morality and “the individual conscience.” I keep thinking about Nit’s statement from the Birth of Tragedy: “Art, not morality is the true metaphysical activity of man.” (or some such stuff…). See, is this the “pure” notion of existentialism suggested in your thoughtful response – and if it is – why is so much attention paid to the “errors” of the past? Why talk about Socrates and the “Platonists”? Why talk about the Christians, the new Platonists and the ills they’ve brought to “good Europeans”? Why draw our attention to philosophy as such?

Anyhow, thanks to all for the help. It is comforting (somehow) to know that you guys read this crap and seemed to understand why I was confused. That is something like a start.

On another front – we had a great practice last night. This does not bode well for the show. Anytime we do well at practice the show following the great practice SUCKED (and we have a large n here – almost ten years worth of trial and fucking error). Fortunately we were wearing down by the end of our practice – the Old Pyle was kickin’ in.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Beyond Me

Hmmmm. This is the Wed when everything gets messy in the Nietzsche class. We start BGE tonight – and on the heels of what we’ve been doing the past several weeks with Zarathustra I’ve got a sort of dilemma re: where to go next. Nit tells us through his “created” Zaratustra that: “Verily men gave themselves all their good and evil.” Now we deal with what’s after “good and evil” – and that’s what I’m wondering about…

BGE is the one book of Nietzsche’s that has captivated me more than any of the others (or at least more than Nit’s other books). Ecce Homo is funnier – more pleasing to read – and I’ve read it more times than BGE and all of Nietzsche’s other books combined. But BGE – my friends who have read more books than I have – they can’t understand why I read the same damn books over and over again. BGE and the Ethics are two perfect examples of why I engaged in such Sisyphusian activities. Those books are fucking mysteries to me and the more I read ‘em the more mysterious they get. Nit himself – in a letter to (I think?) Peter Gast says: “Please read this new book (BGE) it says the same things as my Zarathustra, but differently.”

And it’s this “differently” that is driving me crazy. Does Nit instruct us as to how we move on once we have discovered that we (humans) give ourselves all that we “esteem”? Nit’s way “in” to most of this stuff – especially the famous “deaths” of things that need to be “overcome” – has a lot to do with science – or the state of the art notion of what it means to know (relative to Nit’s world in the 19th Century). He offers this wonderful critique of positivism (or what might be called the “positivistic critique of knowledge”) – and shows how it has affected (or infected) the study of history – the humanities in general – and how positivism – this unabashed belief in the stuff of the scientific method – is, in itself, a belief or an assertion. The objectivity deemed so important by the positivists is only important because WE SAY SO. Right, the boring old ‘subjective nature of the demand for objectivity’ crap…

…but where Nit goes w/ this, that’s what’s interesting. He sees – first – the limits of positivism and the attending problems – AND he takes advantage of this opportunity to say what “by definition” we humans can no longer believe in (without ending his sentences w/ a preposition…which, I don’t know if that’s verboten in German…).

So he does this in the On the Uses and Disadvantages of History and the Gay Science – but after Z – where many say Nietzsche gives us his “complete” (or more complete) philosophy…he goes directly to this question (I think?): “What to we do after all this hullabaloo about good and evil?” See, it’s too easy to think that after creating the myth in the previous work – Nit now shows us how to recreate philosophy – or philosophic poetry in BGE. But my instinct suggests there is a lot more going on here – including focusing the same sort of critique (that came earlier in the realm of 19th century science and phil) to this critique of moral philosophy and/or philosophy in general.

“How could anything originate out of it’s opposite?”
…and while Nit doesn’t use the example of Soc at this point – the example comes screaming off the page – What is the Soc claim to wisdom? – get it?

The playful suggestion at the end of Sec. 3: “Supposing, that is, that not just man is the measure of all things” –
The reference here to Protagoras – the foil of Socrates – and this statement associated with the sum of Protagoras’ thought – supposedly the theoretical foil of all that is Socratic philosophy.

I’m not sure if I’ve even done a good job explaining my problem with teaching this crap…

Maybe this is better – and if you are someone that doesn’t know much – or doesn’t care about Nietzsche – see if you can make sense out of the following statement of my problem:

MY PROBLEM: “What is going on in Beyond Good and Evil? Is Nietzsche telling us how we create our “valuations” after the discoveries he’s previously discussed? Or, is Nietzsche continuing the previous line of questioning applied to science, history and the humanities of his time – and applying that criticism to philosophy in general?”

And that’s where I am…it will probably get worse.
(here's a bigger problem - I can't get my stupid blog to do italics...What the fuck!)

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

The Only Person That Wants to Hear About Your Golf Game is YOU

Get it? I’m starting to. Excited about the new e-borhood put on by Mr. Gunderson and instigated by WTG. I’ve got to get the word out to GS – he sent an e-mail on the old e-mail chain thang. Also excited about the rock show this weekend. Will this be our last show as bigDrag? It doesn’t matter at this point. We've got bigger fish to fry.

I’m still happy from my dopey little vacation over the weekend – as well as the White Sox World Series. If any blog readers are tired of this unabashed joy and they feel like punching me in the face – don’t worry, I know the feeling. Wha?

Replaced the floatingBasement thing with a new/pieced together and semi-plagiarized longform bio thing from my journals – my floatingBasement book – my leftover crap. I think I’m calling it No Trick Pony (for now).

Monday, November 07, 2005

Blog Blower-Offer

That’s what I am, a blog blower-offer. I did not have time to write about my life this weekend because I was busy enjoying it.

I was actually able to take my wife on a date Friday night. We really needed it. Took Alex to Jasmine’s – she’s a great babysitter. The kid has got a good head on her shoulder. Her first mission for us was the night of the TGC show. When Kim came back, Jasmine had put Alex to sleep and cleaned our house. We found the ubersitter.

Kim and I tried to decide whether we’d go to Taxco or this Italian restaurant that may, or may not also be a hearing aid battery company. We went to Taxco and weren’t sorry. Great food, lots of flaming veggies going around from table to table. Food, beer and Kim and I spent some time hammering out some of our beefs. We sort of have to schedule time to bitch and complain to each other – I know it probably doesn’t seem like I’m too busy (if you read a few of these entries) – but I’m hard to get a hold of…maybe that’s why it’s not easy to yell at me.

Believe it or not, I take my marriage seriously. I think that anybody who takes their marriage seriously ought to take time to hash out problems over a fun evening. Anytime you can do something serious/important, and bitch-out your spouse, while having fun – you’re doing ok. That’s what we did last night so I guess we’re doing ok. Alex was pretty beat when we picked him up – but he had another good night with Jasmine. Kim and I are blessed with good friends… people we trust….good stuff like that.

On a related topic – does spacey piano playing belong in rock ‘n roll?

Saturday. The little family got to go on a vacation…we went to Rockford.

Hey, I like Rockford. We went to the Clocktower Hotel/Museum/Kids’ Pool and it was fun. This was the second family outing there booked by our dear friend JMoo. She helped us get a good deal. The kids had a blast! One end of the pool is a little kid pool and the other end goes to a depth of about 5ft or so. Alex had a big smile on his puss the whole time we were there. The kids seemed to get along – and after the pool adventure the grown-ups ate boxes of pizza and washed the chlorine/pee pool water taste out of our mouths with cans of Old Style.

Got up friggin’ early on Sunday morning – went back to the pool – cruised back to DeKalb Rock City and it was too late to go to the Newman 10:15am Mass. Went to St. Mary’s and we had to go to Alex. I’m always torn about taking the boy to Holy Mass at his age. I want him to be respectful of others – because for some this is the only time of the week they can get some peace and reflection and junk like that. I also do not want to try to discipline him too much because I want him to enjoy being in church. I know I sound like Ned Flanders, but I really love being in church – even when I thought it was all a bunch of bullshit, I was always happy to be in something that someone called God’s house. Now that I’ve come back to the church full time (for like six years now) I’m not a better person, I don’t understand life or God’s love any better, but I have a place to go where I sort of hear the same message every week, and (I don’t know what this says about me) I NEED TO HEAR THE SAME SORT OF MESSAGE EVERY WEEK (because I’m just that dumb). Anyway, enough of evangelical ed (I could single-handedly bring down organized religion and some days, quite frankly, it doesn’t need any help from me). Anyhow, back to Alex, he was perfect (or perfect according to my dopey version of perfect). We sat in the last seat (against the back wall). He whispered a few questions here and there – mostly he was curious about where the piano music came from and who St. Alphonse was (I could only answer his first question). He stood on the pew but didn’t shout out or stomp around so I figured – ‘Let the boy stand on the pew. Maybe he thinks we’re back-benchers in the Canadian Parliament’ (Sorry beautiful losers). Every once in awhile he’d shoot a thumbs up at me – and I’d shoot one right back at him. There’s no greater gift than being able to share your faith (even in this simple way) with your family. A lot happens in life – I figure if you can savor a few simple moments every once in awhile – you’re not fucking up too badly.

Possible words on my tombstone: “He didn’t fuck everything up.”

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Positively 'A Chorus Line'

…with apologies to bobdylanfosse – dot org.

My hand hurt all day today. Could this be the dreaded malady that my parents, clerics, teachers and the occasional lacrosse coach have warned me about for years? Come to think of it, my vision hasn't been that good lately either…

No rock practice tonight. Dev was tied up in a meeting (I think) – gee, it sounds like he gets to have fun at work. ChrisB just jumped to the top of my list of people I want to French…er, American…kiss with tongues (Sorry Irving Crystal – you’re now just another sports writing corpse to me, and you can say hello to Dick Schapp while your at it). Chris has a test of the new – or soon to be new(?) Action City site going. The image is great – the name looks good – he’s got a possible album title worked in there…it’s a little ishy – but I am NOT complaining. He’s put a lot of work into it and – more importantly – it’s good. He’s also loaded a version of WHO’S STUPID NOW into the site (stick clicks and all). It sounds fine (for an MP3 – no one’s gonna know – not even me – and I don’t care). I just want to have this thing ready to go so that when we decide to pick a song – do a final mixdown – send it out for a few reviews – people will have a way of downloading a free copy of at least the lead song on the CD single. That’s all I want and Chris did it. Good job ya cute little…

He also responded to my e-mails about getting Alex to record the live shows. It seems possible, although the Nov 12th thing might be short notice. The one who is one with all that is Squirrel does sound at Otto’s a lot and may be working on Sat. We’ll see…

Sort of a drag that there’s no practice tonight – I really look forward to watching Chris and the Old Dog play Grand Theft Auto while we wait for Dev.

I gotta get a new posse.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Why Do I Even Try on Wed Night?

The White Sox won the World Series one week ago tonight.

And I am still an idiot.

Wed entries just suck because Wed is such a long day for my dumb ass. Usually up between 6:00 and 6:30am because Alex is excited about River Day. Deb (Alex’s teacher) has decided to promote science and environmental learning stuff (as much as you can w/ 4 year olds, and younger) by taking the kids to the Kish and having them measure things, identify things take the temperature of the water…wade around in the river (I hope that myth is bullshit – Does that make sense?) – suffice it to say that whether or not Alex is doomed to spend the rest of his life in DeKalb – he LOVES River Day.

Ok – so my Wed starts extra early with a 4 year old who is ready to go. Then I spend most of the morning making changes to my newest Nietzsche lecture – sometimes making changes means calling my lecture notes, “Shit that sucks hell!” – ripping them “half-in-two” and starting the fuck over. Then teach both sections of the History of Social Thought…meet with students most of the afternoon. I don’t know what has gotten into these kids. I can remember when a two hour block of “office hours” in the afternoon meant a nice nap on the dirty floor of my office. For some reason, students from all my classes (and even former students who’ve figured out I’ve moved three times in the past semester and ½) come to see me and I’m pretty much booked from 2pm – 4pm. Kids these days…

Then I spend 4pm to 5:50pm reviewing my revised notes for the evening’s lecture. Reviewing my revised notes usually involves me saying: “These notes suck more hell than the shit I threw away! Why did I do that? Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!”

6pm until whenever the post class crew decides to let me go is devoted to Nietzsche – the past three weeks we’ve been talking about a very limited portion of Z – “On the Thousand and One Goals”- and I’m still doing that a disservice.

By the time I get home, my wife and kid are asleep – and my brain has been shut off for at least ½ hour. Then I write an entry like this one. Damn.

Just think how stupid I'd be if I had a real job...

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Helluva Halloween

Alex, his mom and I had the best Halloween. This was the first year (since he’s been able to sort of assert himself) that he’s wanted to wear a costume and knock on strangers’ doors. The past two years – Trix has wanted to make the boy a costume and I’ve had to say – “Thanks girl, but he says he won’t wear it. I don’t want to force him to do anything. Halloween should be fun or it should be nothing. Thanks anyhoo.” The Trix is a sport eh. She also helps me with all my tool needs – insert your “cheatin’ on Bill Garver” – or, more appropriately – “Ed YOU are a tool” joke here…or anywhere…oh, wait, I know where you can insert that joke. You? Who am I talking to?

Oh, Halloween. So, the kid was Spiderman and I was his archrival Dr. Otto Octavious (it really worked out that a guy with that name ended up having four extra arms fused to his body…) – Man you can’t make this shit up! Alex asked me what would make him REALLY be like Spiderman. This was two weeks ago. I guess he was getting into character. I’m glad he didn’t want to be the Kingpin – the kid hates to eat. Anyway, he wanted to know what would make people believe he really was Spiderman – I said “You need some jokes kid. Spiderman had a lot of one liners.” We worked up a few…some are from the comic books themselves…some we made up.

Dad as Doc Ock: “Spiderman, you’ve made a career out of interfering with my plans.”
Alex as Spiderman: “Some career. No salary, no vacation.”

Dad as Doc Ock: “Spiderman, this I swear: You are my enemy!”
Alex as Spiderman: “Well, that tears it. I’m taking you off of my Christmas list”
this one was a stretch

Dad as Doc Ock: “Spiderman, I will get you if it’s the last thing I do.”
Alex as Spiderman:: “Can you make it the second to last think you do because we’re out of milk?”

We did our little skits at a few places…but the best part of Halloween was just seeing him do his trick or treating like a wonderful four year old. He’d knock at the door, or ring the doorbell with confidence. Say his “Trick or Treat” clearly…and offer the person a nice thank you. He didn’t want to stop going to door to door – and my beautiful boy is not always that comfortable with people – especially strangers. Kim and I were so proud. She looked at me at one point and whispered, “This is great because we know he’s not going door to door because he wants candy.” Yeah, the kid doesn’t like candy – and we can’t get him to talk to strangers – be careful with any jokes you may be thinking of – you’re fucking with Spiderman here!!!! To anybody who doesn’t know me and is reading this blog – my friends are sick motherfuckers and are more than willing to make the joke I tried to warn them against making – so you best move on…

Finally, here are 16 words that should’ve been taken out of another speech by G Bushy:

“I love that Walker Texas Ranger. He is just poured into that cowboy hat. Me sleepy.”